The Ladybug and the Ant
Was it the rays and glory from the halo that shone off the angels when I looked through your eyes that mid morning?
Echoes from the halls, but yet in the embrace of my arms, so quiet, with the look of content and glowing from knowing.
This was your place, from which you will take root and bloom. No other saw, but you raised your head, and seeped through my soul, as I saw the rarest of all two.
It was like when you stumble upon these rigid rocks, and realize deep inside it’s only for you, it would sparkle and shine, the rarest of hue.
To first grasp your head, it felt like a million downy feathers bundled in one. So gentle was your presence, it would make me from that second change.
I was like the oyster that would hold and embrace its pearl deep within, and keep it safe from harm. It would try this for so long, and it would not exchange.
This feeling for no other, your fingers, how they would drown my finger in emotion as it sought to do, with you wrapped around like a yellow ribbon on that old oak tree.
It is so hard to speak of how you came here, how it was possible to make such a being, a new petal on that rose bud, and you came to be.
It seems it was the day before when this all was true. Now I see you play in the gold and burgundy fall, with that smile that makes me weak, my little mister.
I would love to say you were the only thing that climbed my ivy filled fence, but you were just as equal, and yet so far, as the day I met your sister.
Oh, my little blue morning orchid that came to my life. Her eyes were not as loud, silent, yet she knew this was home, like a baby deer drinking in the forest down upon the silvered creek.
She was a girl of any, her hair as soft as the first plucked wish weeds. To know what life was before her, was far too bleak.
Her toes were as small as the minced grains of stones you find in the coral hiding of the beaches of riddance.
She was beyond what I made her up to be. It was like when you would see a red robin fluff its breast up in all its brilliance.
It knew it was radiant and bright, and my love for her grew with every sight.
Her sweetness set you on a trail of a truffle chocolate turbulent delight.
When I would see her, and light stands still, I would lean into those timber bridged eyes.
My son, as the curious ant leaving the pack, and my daughter, as the ladybug resting on the grass blade.
Without these two, I would be nothing. It would come to no surprise, I would most likely shrivel to my demise.
~~ Janie Welsh ~~
at night, puff, puff, like summer
cumulus above her bed,
and her scalp smelling of apricots
–this being who had formed within me,
squatted like a bright tree-frog in the dark,
like an eohippus she had come out of history
slowly, through me, into the daylight,
I had the daily sight of her,
like food or air she was there, like a mother.
I say “college,” but I feel as if I cannot tell
the difference between her leaving for college
and our parting forever–I try to see
this house without her, without her pure
depth of feeling, without her creek-brown
hair, her daedal hands with their tapered
fingers, her pupils dark as the mourning cloak’s
wing, but I can’t. Seventeen years
ago, in this room, she moved inside me,
I looked at the river, I could not imagine
my life with her. I gazed across the street,
and saw, in the icy winter sun,
a column of steam rush up away from the earth.
There are creatures whose children float away
at birth, and those who throat-feed their young
for weeks and never see them again. My daughter
is free and she is in me–no, my love
of her is in me, moving in my heart,
changing chambers, like something poured
from hand to hand, to be weighed and then reweighed.